I'm really bad at this...

Aren't blogs supposed to be philosophical or something? If so, I'm horrible. I'm never philosphical. I usually get on here and bitch and complain. So, I think I'll give the philosophical thing a try.

I watched home movies last night. The first tape was all Chloe. I was about 8 months pregnant with Calle when I got my video camera. As I watched Chloe as a 2-year-old, I realized that I haven't stopped to take the time to enjoy each stage of their lives. I've taken literally thousands of pictures of them and I can't recall what made me want to capture each moment. I had to be reminded of the little things, like the way Chloe used to say "Something's terrible!" when she couldn't figure out how to open something. And Calle's tiny cry when she was a baby. I had to be reminded of what George looked like holding a tiny baby. I had actually forgotten those things.
I think it is time to -- and I know this is cliche -- stop and smell the roses. I need to enjoy those little things and not focus so hard on the big things. The big things are easy to remember, but the little things are heartbreaking to forget.